Catch Me I'm Falling

Do you understand? What it is like to never be recognized? Especially by the one you know you love. Can you imagine what it is like to live day after day knowing that the person you love is choosing to treat you like you don't matter when to you there is not a single thing on the earth that you wouldn't do for them? All you could ever want in that moment is to be able to disappear or fly away or just fall off into the black darkness of no feeling. We could do that, but feeling pain is better than living with no feeling at all, right? But just because we aren't choosing to land in the deep dark nothing, that doesn't mean we're not falling into that place and in desperate need of rescue. What do you do when the one you love is choosing to leave you behind and you have no choice but to watch them run away? You are powerless and have no authority as to what they do when even at one point in your lives you trusted one another with life and death. You watch them leave and you know that they are going to make big mistakes. Thinking that alone would hurt you. But even worse still is that you know that they are going to make those unforgivable mistakes and they are still going to be happy, without you. But it's fine, right? Because they don't care anymore. They are fine. They left and walked out willingly and they tell themselves that they made the right choice. It doesn't affect them. I only kills and destroys you. So why should they care? You were only the one who could understand them better than they could understand themselves. You were only the one who cared for them even when you knew they were wrong. You could only give everything you had to them and never regret giving it up, just to make them happy. You would only have walked the world to get them a blade of grass that they wanted. Why should they care? Why should they even believe you when you say that you need them to catch you from falling into this darkness that you could never find your way out of? Why should they catch you when you have nothing for them anymore and never will?